Since my life is boring and I really don't have the writing skills to make it interesting, I want to just take this time to give a small thanks.
Well It's not small. It's a big thanks on a small bloggy thingy.
I wanna thank all my friends for being there for me. You know I wouldn't have been able to become who I am without you guys. You've helped me grow and you've let me be me for the last 19 years. I love you guys soooo much. You listen when I need it, you put up with me when I can't shut up, and you've somehow managed to love me even though I haven't done anything spectacular or special. I love you!!!!!! <################### :)
*this was just because I'm tired and overly emotional and recently I was thinking about some things and I needed to vent and it helped alot when I finally let it out. Keeping it in really chews you up inside.
...well that was boring HAHAHAHAHA Night all! :D
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Pet Peeves and Digression
I don't know what it is but as soon as it gets dark and I'm alone I start to get really depressing.
Subject of today: Pet Peeves
-People who don't say please and thank you
-People who take advantage of you and know it
...that's pretty much it for right now because I'm tired and the people I work for want me to come to work at freakin nine in the morning!!!!! How insane! Sonny says it's because he doesn't want to run out of things like he did today!! WHATEVER!!!!! We didn't run out of anything. And seriously two hours before the thing starts??? That's insane. I'm pretty upset about this whole work thing. I could go on a whole rant but then I won't be able to start and talking is better than typing anyway....
But I will say (on a completely different note...or not completely. It has to do with typing vs. talking and stuff) that I prefer typing to texting and to writing. Writing and texting are too slow. Talking is the best, then typing.
...............Needs to shake this feeling..................
............Why is it even here?...............
...........It's irrational..................
................STOP................
Subject of today: Pet Peeves
-People who don't say please and thank you
-People who take advantage of you and know it
...that's pretty much it for right now because I'm tired and the people I work for want me to come to work at freakin nine in the morning!!!!! How insane! Sonny says it's because he doesn't want to run out of things like he did today!! WHATEVER!!!!! We didn't run out of anything. And seriously two hours before the thing starts??? That's insane. I'm pretty upset about this whole work thing. I could go on a whole rant but then I won't be able to start and talking is better than typing anyway....
But I will say (on a completely different note...or not completely. It has to do with typing vs. talking and stuff) that I prefer typing to texting and to writing. Writing and texting are too slow. Talking is the best, then typing.
...............Needs to shake this feeling..................
............Why is it even here?...............
...........It's irrational..................
................STOP................
Friday, August 7, 2009
Tack on
Jealousy hurts. Abandonment hurts. Or at least the feeling does. Being taken advantage of hurts as well.
I hate night. They make it all prominent. This is ridiculous.
SNAP OUT OF IT!!!!
Whenever I need to vent my bread isn't here. And just wait she'll ask me what I needed to vent about and I won't remember.
*sigh*
I hate night. They make it all prominent. This is ridiculous.
SNAP OUT OF IT!!!!
Whenever I need to vent my bread isn't here. And just wait she'll ask me what I needed to vent about and I won't remember.
*sigh*
Cookies
Okay so this post really has nothing to do with cookies except for a passing mention. I just ate about half a dozen of my chocolate chip cookies that I made the other night from a RECIPE!!! tHey weren't refrigerated cookies which I am very proud of! I might have burnt a few but...they still turned out fine in my books considering I fail at pretty much any form of cooking or baking!! :)
Yes. Now that that is over.
Don't you hate the feeling of being lost? That's me right now. I feel like I'm drowning and no one is there to save me. It's not really in a big way!! HAHA maybe drowning isn't the right comparison...hmmmm.
okay we'll say drowning but to a lesser degree. :) <--------- just so you know I'm not saying that drowning is a happy prospect, the happy face is just there because I'm clarifying...and it's a habit.
Lately I've just been feeling so ...lost. And jealous. But when do I not feel like that! lol I feel really taken advantage from actually on a whole different counts. Most of all work but still on other fronts. But you know when you try to say something to someone they either don't see your point, they think what you're saying is stupid, or they get it but they don't understand why you're fretting about it and they just blow it off. That's what it's like for me. And I don't really have an outlet either. I tell Bruno. That's my outlet! lol
Another thing that's been weighing on my mind is being a fan. I love being a fan of something or someone. The only thing is, is that if you get the chance to meet that someone or contact them in some way...I want them to reply, not as a celebrity to a fan, but to reply as a person. I want them to be sincere and do it for ME as a person not a fan. You know?
That's what it was like at Twicon. I just felt uncomfortable the whole time because I wanted to get my autograph for ME. I wanted to get my picture for ME. I wanted Allen and Craig to be nice to me for ME! *sigh* but it's not really gonna work that way is it?
So before I leave ...just another lil note. My videos are not working on this comp. I can't go on youtube or anything because I don't have the right software. And the thing is, I've downloaded it all but it's STILL. NOT. WORKING!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!
So yeah I must be going now because I need sleep. And I need to clean off my bed. And I need to ponder....yes...ponder.....
P.S. I've noticed that I am ************************************** :)
Yes. Now that that is over.
Don't you hate the feeling of being lost? That's me right now. I feel like I'm drowning and no one is there to save me. It's not really in a big way!! HAHA maybe drowning isn't the right comparison...hmmmm.
okay we'll say drowning but to a lesser degree. :) <--------- just so you know I'm not saying that drowning is a happy prospect, the happy face is just there because I'm clarifying...and it's a habit.
Lately I've just been feeling so ...lost. And jealous. But when do I not feel like that! lol I feel really taken advantage from actually on a whole different counts. Most of all work but still on other fronts. But you know when you try to say something to someone they either don't see your point, they think what you're saying is stupid, or they get it but they don't understand why you're fretting about it and they just blow it off. That's what it's like for me. And I don't really have an outlet either. I tell Bruno. That's my outlet! lol
Another thing that's been weighing on my mind is being a fan. I love being a fan of something or someone. The only thing is, is that if you get the chance to meet that someone or contact them in some way...I want them to reply, not as a celebrity to a fan, but to reply as a person. I want them to be sincere and do it for ME as a person not a fan. You know?
That's what it was like at Twicon. I just felt uncomfortable the whole time because I wanted to get my autograph for ME. I wanted to get my picture for ME. I wanted Allen and Craig to be nice to me for ME! *sigh* but it's not really gonna work that way is it?
So before I leave ...just another lil note. My videos are not working on this comp. I can't go on youtube or anything because I don't have the right software. And the thing is, I've downloaded it all but it's STILL. NOT. WORKING!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!
So yeah I must be going now because I need sleep. And I need to clean off my bed. And I need to ponder....yes...ponder.....
P.S. I've noticed that I am ************************************** :)
Short lil blurb
Back from Twicon. I'm sad :(
I miss everyone.
But this isn't the point of this post. No it is not. The point is to report that I am deeply disappointed in my poster. Why you might ask? and which poster?
Well here's the thing. My Dark Knight poster (which answers the which portion of the question) keeps falling down and won't stay on my wall (that answers the why portion). It's been up on my wall for about a month and NOW it decides to fall down!!! Why is that I wonder? I. Don't. Know.
Another thing. There is no chair in my house that I can use as a desk chair. So I am sitting right now on my suitcase (full of clothes) typing this.
It's not very comfortable. At. All.
I NEED SLEEP!!!
I'm tired.
Well I met all my chatzy friends and they are all fantastic. I didn't want to leave them at all!!!! Ugh. But now I reallly don't know what to do with my life. I mean Twicon was such a big landmark for me I was looking forward to it so much that now I don't know what to do.
It all feels like a dream. It also felt like Twicon was the be all and end all of world as I knew it. once Twicon was over...life was over. But it's not which doesn't make my life easy because I still have to work. :(
Okay so I have noticed that this didn't make any sense. I blame the tiredness and Merai.
Goodnight! :)
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I miss everyone.
But this isn't the point of this post. No it is not. The point is to report that I am deeply disappointed in my poster. Why you might ask? and which poster?
Well here's the thing. My Dark Knight poster (which answers the which portion of the question) keeps falling down and won't stay on my wall (that answers the why portion). It's been up on my wall for about a month and NOW it decides to fall down!!! Why is that I wonder? I. Don't. Know.
Another thing. There is no chair in my house that I can use as a desk chair. So I am sitting right now on my suitcase (full of clothes) typing this.
It's not very comfortable. At. All.
I NEED SLEEP!!!
I'm tired.
Well I met all my chatzy friends and they are all fantastic. I didn't want to leave them at all!!!! Ugh. But now I reallly don't know what to do with my life. I mean Twicon was such a big landmark for me I was looking forward to it so much that now I don't know what to do.
It all feels like a dream. It also felt like Twicon was the be all and end all of world as I knew it. once Twicon was over...life was over. But it's not which doesn't make my life easy because I still have to work. :(
Okay so I have noticed that this didn't make any sense. I blame the tiredness and Merai.
Goodnight! :)
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